hi aranya,
searching within urself is the toughest of all job..but once you are completed, you are the happiest of all..
great wishes..

kichu bolar nei . bhalo llag che na kichu bolte kau kei . shunlaam next month ei shomoy naki pujo . remembered a plump girl with curly ponytail , and chocolate skin taking out a catalouge from her school bag to discuss cuts and falls and frils with her equally enthusiastic and yellow plump blun
t haired friend . while someone else ,thin and lanky with a dreastically tied down with pins thick plait , and see thro shirt hanging from body over the less than knee lenght skirt and those shoes , we all hated . ki jano naam chilo - henry , tai na? so these two plump girls sat and kept on deciding and planning ..and year after year , kept sayiong the same thing a month before pujas - ar chocolate na , strict dieting . ar amay bolto tor ki moja na , you can wear wat u want - ar ami boltaam sadly i dont wantto wear those stuff ...
ami abar wight put on korlaam in last 4 weeks esp around u know where . but i think its more to do with my hormones than my food . will get into shape soon , just cant find the right incentive. agni r biye shunli? quite a shock ki bol

by the way - bad news yesterday sharma aunty (ravi 's mom ) died ( cardiac arrest) ma is quite in a shock . baba abar amay fon kore reena k dhoriye dillo , i mean wat does one say , she kept on howling and saying progi i am as strong as you d be , i know i have to , missing having u around . bohut baje laagchilo . feel so helpless sitting far away . mone hoy j ar pain chute paarbe na but then it only embraces u more . ma k fon korlam , cud make out she had jus returned from shoshan , shaking voice e bollo - shojjo to korei choleychi , aar bhalo laagug ar na lagug , ekta request please matha thanda korey thik korey thako tomra , aar soiybaar khomota nei . was feeling miserable after hanging up . the times wen u want tears to come out but they wont . ektu terrace e haantlaam , taar por arnaber kaachey giye chup chap boshey chilaam , resting my head close to him . ki hoyche , sharma aunty r jonno upset . i was probably mumbling somthing . he was (or it seemed to me) focussing on his dinner . after a while i left . tor ekta kotha khub mone hoychillo - need somone to just share - anything everything . aami class e koto peychi , it matters to me , i need to share . guess hoy na bodhoy . ultimately you learn that love need nt be about sharing , cud be bunch of latent emotions only to be occasionally felt but not expressed . know u r not exactly in hi spirits these days , well neither am i , but who cares , we shall overcome ek din .... man me hai vishwash .. ( and i mean the guy called vishwaas....... heeee hee heee ) smita ta besh tun tuni achey , kotha bole dekhte parish . kobe ashar plan tor ?

U believe
So u can have
U believe
So u have faith
U believe
So u have dream
U believe
So u pull
U believe so u will win
U believe
So u will have